Humble Parent Pie

Mateo and I are now in Winnipeg waiting for baby to arrive. So far nothing. But we have been keeping busy. We haven't been much help because Mateo is attached to my hip. I have decided he is missing home a bit because Davide came up this weekend and he is a changed little guy. Much more independent than he has been.

Like this whole motherhood gig, I am realizing more and more how humbling of an experience motherhood is. I am fairly self aware person therefore I am constantly assessing and reassessing my life. Yesterday was another one of those times.

So Mateo has been what I call a huge mommy suck. I can't even go to the bathroom without him. Which isn't normal. He is usually quite content playing on the living room while I run laundry downstairs or make supper. Anyway we have gone to visit his grandparents in the city twice since we got here last week and both times he has screamed, cried and whimpered when he saw them. I feel terrible when he does this because I know it hurts their feelings.

After our visit we went to the mall and Mateo was being a sweet content baby in his stroller and we ran into some friends and they commented how good of a baby he was and I laughed and said yeah right.Then proceeded to tell them how attached he has been to me. Then my friend looked at Mateo and said "mom I am just a baby". And at the moment I needed that reminder. He is just a baby of course he is the most comfortable with me. He is completely out of his element and there are unreal expectations on him. He knows what he is comfortable with and has no problem voicing his opinion on what he is not comfortable with. And just because he is not comfortable with people that want him to be comfortable with him doesn't mean he is, but it also doesn't mean this will always be the case.

So moral of this story is Mateo is a baby, a baby that adores his mother, simple as that.