I am sick :(

I stayed home from school today because I can't get rid of this head cold. I feel like my head is a pressure cooker. My eyes are even watering.... like I am going to spill over.

Of course staying home isn't always easier. My Dad was putting the hardwood floors in so needless to say there was no point in staying in bed. I got up had some tea then helped my Grandma make peanut butter cookies. Dad suggested I vacuum the stairs then everyone was home for lunch. But now it's quiet and I am bored and feeling like shit so I'll kill some time on here.

Davide mentioned the other day that he may want to stay in The Pas and buy a house. I was taken by surprise. Not that I didn't think he'd ever suggest it but I didn't expect it so soon. He thinks there are a lot of opportunities here for him. Right now he has a good job. Also the college has the program he'd like to eventually teach. He also thinks he could potentially open a small shop here. He's right there are opportunities here. I am just not sure I want to stay here.

I am not against the idea. I am just unsure. Partly because I am back in school. I love school but it also gives me this illusion that I am young and free. I can do whatever I want with no responsibilities. Which I know is not the case. Not because Davide won't let me but because I know I want stability, my own home and to have kids sometime in the near future. I guess it doesn't help that everyone close always talks about moving. I like it here but partly because I am with people that I am close to.

Again I am not delusional. I know that I am not going to always have everyone I want around me. So regardless of whether people are here it may not matter in the decision to stay here. I guess ultimately the decision will be made once I have a full time permanent job. Once that happens then we can buy a house, have babies and settle down.

That is what I want, to settle down. I love traveling but I also love coming home. I've travelled a lot over the past few years so I don't think that will change. I've chosen a good career that is conducive to travelling.

As I think about it I'd be content to stay here. Especially if we could find good jobs and a nice property with a few acres. We'll see though... I have to finish school first!